Sad

overwhelmed

Just feeling a bit overwhelmed lately with lots of different things really. Financially, being lonely, feeling distant from God and even with the house and organization. I feel like though that God is still here with me, hearing me and helping me through everything. I don't know, I am confusing some times!

maybe I should try to blog more...

So we have had a lot of adventures at our house lately. First we found some abnormal things in my daughter Hannah's head CT. So now the neurologist is trying to figure out what is causing it. So she has had many tests and now we wait for the results. Shortly after her MRI we found out that we were pregnant with #4! I am due in March and we are very excited for this new little one! The next is that Hannah and Gabriel started school this year! It is hard to have them away, but they are doing well and love their school, I know it is good for them! The last crazy thing is that my husband Andy broke his arm a couple of days ago when he was taking Hannah ice skating. He will be getting a cast this week and we are praying that surgery doesn't have to happen!

celiac disease

Yesterday we found out that our oldest daughter has celiac disease. I am now trying to research and build my recipe box again! I feel awful that we didn't find this sooner. She might not have had such a hard time at life if we had known sooner. I am praying that once she has been on the diet for a while that she will feel much better!

Thankful?

I just read my friends blog and she wrote many things that she is thankful for. I was inspired to do the same, but then thought about my mood right now. I am not thankful...but I should be! For one, Jesus saved me and now I have eternal life in Him, two He has given me a husband and three wonderful kids. Three, He has always provided us some how with more than we need...not just food and shelter, but way above and beyond what we need or deserve. He provides all the time and am I grateful all the time? NO! I am not, and this is bad. Lord please help me to be thankful for all you have done for me and be satisfied with less not always wanting more.

frustrated

trying to figure out what is going on. I feel like a failure. I feel like I am so far away from God. But at the same time I feel like I am praying and reading the bible and trying to focus on Jesus. I am frustrated and confused.